:: Parasitism ::

:: Tuesday, January 15, 2002 ::

SWEET DREAMS
I know what you do...I know what you think
I know who you are....I know how you feel
I know your fears....I know your heart
I know your life....I know your past

Fear is the the foundation on which you built your life
Cowardice the mortar in which you hold it together
Arrogance is the walls to shield you from the storms
Insecurities your roof to keep you warm
...............................I'm gonna burn you down..............................................

All the time you you frown upon those who are not like you
Content in your own world
like i said i know you..........
This is my WORLD...

As you walk down the crowded street
People pass by you
You never even notice
I am the one who blatantly steps on your feet


LOVE ME!!!!(show me your world)
HATE ME!!!!(i'll burn it down)
KNOW ME!!!!!!(i am your nightmare)
DON'T WORRY!!!(cause i'll be here FOREVER)

Run Run Run .......I am on your heals
Hide ......I am behind you
Turn around.....I'm gone
You calm down......Here i am again!!

Why is it that you cant hear me?
How do you not feel my breath?
You try to forget ....But you miss me
You want to kill me?.......But i am death

Now you know why i know you
Now you know why
I am always there
Now go to sleep my child
......Hear my psychotic lullaby

LOVE ME(show me your world)
HATE ME(i'll burn it down)
KNOW ME (i am your nightmare)
DON'T WORRY(cause i'll be here forever)






:: WishKiller 1/15/2002 [+] ::
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Life on Trial

In this life ,I ask why?
The pain and fear ,only wish to DIE
LIFE NEVER THE SAME ALWAYS CHANGING
(FOR THE WORSE)
CRIPPLED AND LAME,STUMBLING TOWARDS THE LEDGE

INTO THE FOREVER OR THE ABYSS?
Life on trial!!!
Who is god?judge?jury….all the same
To decide fate is not your choice
What is life?power?death?weakness?
One last call,come hear your dying voice

HA!HA!HA!……YOU STILL HERE?
TRYING TO REPENT?OR ASCEND?
MEMORIES HAUNTING,ONLY DAYS REMAIN
LIFE BEGINS FOR ONE REASON…………….(to end!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Needing one last chance
Begging for the opportunity to right your wrong
Your heart pounding, you fall to your knees
This fucking life is over……………………………….....
Guilty as charged!!






:: WishKiller 1/13/2002 [+] ::
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My Final Goodbye

Hello my friends,I love you all
If you are reading this it's too late
I must finish this before i fall
I regret to inform you,I am approaching hell's gate

Everything in my life was pointless and and to no avail
The lives i touched,The time we spent
One way or the other.you're lives i bent
I always said you will be better off without me
For i am doing this for you,My only ones
I love to see you happy.........now you WILL be

I started this life in hell
And i will end this hell
As i descend
I will always remember the word friend

I started This life in hell(There is nowhere i would rather dwell)
And i will end this hell(The hearts of those i hold dear)
As i descend(All your pain and regret i take away)
I will always remember the word friend(As i set here i face the end)

It is true i never felt fear,I never needed love
The life i lead,The things i have done
The sacrifices i made........Left me undone
All my life i needed this,I wanted nothing more
A little bit of life is all i ever had
I will greatly miss you all........Please don't be sad

I started my life in hell
And i will end this hell
As i descend
I will always remember the word friend

I started this life in hell(I loathe my pain)
And i will end this hell(And i loathe myself)
As i descend(I will finally be free)
I will always remember the word friend(NOW THIS LIFE I END)

GOD WHYYYYY!!!!! WHY THIS WAY?!?!?!( I WAS ALLWAYS USELESS!! )
WHY THE FUCK WAS I BORN!?!? (TO DIE A BROKEN MAN!?!)
WHY THE PAIN?? ( I NEVER DESERVED THIS)
LET ME DIE IN PEACE.........(PLEASE GO AWAY..........)

All the tears i have shed,All the pain i caused
The begging an pleading for the small but important things in my life
You turned away,Now i turn away from you
I just needed things to be ok
Just a pawn in the one sided game of life
I never was liked,I wanted to die
And YOU.. You hid my knife

I sat in my room for a while
And i took my time,reviewed my self
And felt like a worthless dusty box on lifes shelf
I tried to do well,i tried to be happy
I did all that was asked of me
I realized ,i was once told to JUST FUCKING DIE
So this is my end,My payment to society
I walk through the valley
I will never again have to cry...........

I started this life in hell
And i will end this hell
As i descend
I will always remember the word friend

I started this life in hell(Please don't remember my name)
And i will end this hell(Don't think of where i am)
As i descend(This chapter of life closes)
I will always remember that you are all my friends...........


Well its time for me to go
This is my final goodbye
Please don't miss me
For i will never again have to cry

sincerely yours
......................m.i.........c...........



:: WishKiller 1/09/2002 [+] ::
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Mirror Mirror

Time has come once again for this world to feel pain
All the suffering and torment from the past it will feel again
For i am the incarnation of madness
The murder of all you hold sacred
So stop running from your past,don't try to hide
I am coming,it is time,receive your reward
So now prepare yourself as our lives collide

Death is not the beginning,its only the end
Damnation awaits as you as you try to defend
All you loved is merely a shadow.as you dig yourself deeper
Into the ground(unhallowed)all this time you believe you escape
Only to see that out you are finding the reapers robe in which i'm draped
So little time, feeling disoriented and blind
You look in the mirror it is i you find

You stand there and cry,disbelieving the sight
You here the bell toll,for you are dying this night
Your blood runs cold when you see your hands
It is the blood of your loved ones
there is no more you can stand
The blood of the ones you fought tonight
In terror you killed them,thinking they were demons
Mightily you slew them,one by one
Now no one is here to help you
The one to blame is you

You never took the time to think of your life
The family who loved you
You loved back with a knife
You done this to your self
so why blame me. we are one
Welcome to agony.......





:: WishKiller 1/08/2002 [+] ::
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Trapped

What's yours is yours..What's mine is mine
In the drugs,peace i find
Real love of the (high)
Bad times go away...higher i fly

PCP,Death of me..clean i never be
Trapped in a maze of right and wrong
My only escape dwells within the bong

What have i done? Where have i gone?
Reflections? Or memories?
I sit here now, Easy to forget...............
........Please...LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!

Acid and (X) make me feel real
I find peace...and life eases off
I find escape..only in the pill

WHAT??WHO???....I'm turned inside out..
Can't remember
My life is gone
Self abuse
(LET'S TRY THIS ONE..)

Tired of life...so I abuse
Life as i knew it, Gone
Because I'm used by these drugs
(Bound)
ALL I NEED IS THE JOY I NEVER FOUND!!!

I started getting high to forget
NOW I CAN'T REMEMBER
(It's what I get)
All is shattered
Life...torn and tattered
Stupidity, be the end of me...
(GOD PLEASE TAKE ME..............AWAY...........)

(chorus)
Childhood gone..(I need to feel this)
Chilled to the Bone..(Helps me feel real)
All things i loved gone..(to fit in)
In my own life, i drown..(Tranquilize me)

(chorus2)
Sedation, ..meditation
Need to buzz
Sorry little cuz
My end is near
No need to fear
Drink it all away
Where will i be, Day to day??

ASHES TO ASHES
DUST TO DUST
DIRT TO DIRT
THIS IS THE END OF THE HURT

goodbye


CLICK...........................BOOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



:: WishKiller 12/16/2001 [+] ::
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Life on Trial

In this life i ask why?
the pain and fear, only wish to die
life never the same, always changing
(for the worse)Crippled and lame, stumbling towards the ledge

Into the forever or the abyss
LIFE ON TRIAL
Who is God? Judge and Jury...All the same
To decide fate, not YOUR choice
What is life? Power? Death? Weakness?
One last call. Come hear your dying voice

HAHAHAHA....You still here??
Trying to repent?Or Ascend?
Memories haunting..only days remain
Life begins for one reason.........(TO END!!!!!)

Needing one last chance
Begging for the opportunity to right your wrong
Your heart pounding, you fall to your knees
This fucking life is over......

GUILTY AS CHARGED!!!



:: WishKiller 12/16/2001 [+] ::
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L.O.S.S.

It all started the day you died
Deny the fact.The pain of your loss
I tried to hide

I know now, that you are in a better place
I sit and wonder, if i will again see your face
Like a brother i never had
DAMN! I wish i could take your place

On that life changing day,.... i heard the news
I could have taken the wheel for you
You were too young to die and had a life to live
For you,..My life i would give

18 and going strong......I'M SO SORRY!!!!

I know it is partially my fault
Steering you the wrong way and helping you lose
You needed something..you came to me
Advice or drugs.. I was here for you.
I should have kicked your ass instead
And maybe you would still be here

Now it is too late
I've learned to NEVER tempt fate
Like you don't know.
I do give a DAMN
Now i will speak the last words i heard you speak
I love you Man!

Hey cuz,..I'm still here
For the first time in my life i feel fear
I don't know if i will ever see you again
SO SPREAD YOUR WINGS AND FLY!
It's time for your real life to begin

I don't know if you can still hear me...i don't know if you even care
But i will honor you
It's the least i can do
GOD IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ME!!!!!!!!!!!!

This song is dedicated to the memory of
Jamie Lee Pate
i love you cuz!(Michael)



:: WishKiller 12/16/2001 [+] ::
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God Damned IGNORE

Void of life,Bereft of a soul,Eyes burning of a thousand hells
Maniacal and Insidious,Feeding off The blood of angels
Necromantic master of storms
ENTER (No One)

Gaze upon a being of hate, A creature denied by all faith
An exile of christianity, Mother Mary i rape
You created me....................MOTHERFUCKERS
Now can you destroy this??
Feeding off of your Hate, Pain, and Torment
Growing eternally stronger
Blackened by your undying trust in(GOD)????
But now it's too late.........

Hells gate open wide, someday you will understand why animals eat their young
The end of life begins
Murder,suicide,genocide, and terrorism
I WILL KILL YOUR GOD!!!!!!!!!!!
Soul thrust into the cataclysm
Fuck the almighty ruler of SHIT!!!

((The End Is Coming)

Out of the depths i crawl,Spearhead of a immortal legion of demons
Leading the damned to the mighty kingdom of YOUR (god??)
The battle begins
Like a panzer mowing thru,I conquer
The bloody war eventually concludes
The (Almighty) bowing to me in disgrace
fuck you all
I am now your..............god

WELCOME TO HELL!!!!!!
:: WishKiller 12/14/2001 [+] ::
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