:: Parasitism ::

:: Sunday, December 16, 2001 ::

Trapped

What's yours is yours..What's mine is mine
In the drugs,peace i find
Real love of the (high)
Bad times go away...higher i fly

PCP,Death of me..clean i never be
Trapped in a maze of right and wrong
My only escape dwells within the bong

What have i done? Where have i gone?
Reflections? Or memories?
I sit here now, Easy to forget...............
........Please...LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!

Acid and (X) make me feel real
I find peace...and life eases off
I find escape..only in the pill

WHAT??WHO???....I'm turned inside out..
Can't remember
My life is gone
Self abuse
(LET'S TRY THIS ONE..)

Tired of life...so I abuse
Life as i knew it, Gone
Because I'm used by these drugs
(Bound)
ALL I NEED IS THE JOY I NEVER FOUND!!!

I started getting high to forget
NOW I CAN'T REMEMBER
(It's what I get)
All is shattered
Life...torn and tattered
Stupidity, be the end of me...
(GOD PLEASE TAKE ME..............AWAY...........)

(chorus)
Childhood gone..(I need to feel this)
Chilled to the Bone..(Helps me feel real)
All things i loved gone..(to fit in)
In my own life, i drown..(Tranquilize me)

(chorus2)
Sedation, ..meditation
Need to buzz
Sorry little cuz
My end is near
No need to fear
Drink it all away
Where will i be, Day to day??

ASHES TO ASHES
DUST TO DUST
DIRT TO DIRT
THIS IS THE END OF THE HURT

goodbye


CLICK...........................BOOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



:: WishKiller 12/16/2001 [+] ::
...

Life on Trial

In this life i ask why?
the pain and fear, only wish to die
life never the same, always changing
(for the worse)Crippled and lame, stumbling towards the ledge

Into the forever or the abyss
LIFE ON TRIAL
Who is God? Judge and Jury...All the same
To decide fate, not YOUR choice
What is life? Power? Death? Weakness?
One last call. Come hear your dying voice

HAHAHAHA....You still here??
Trying to repent?Or Ascend?
Memories haunting..only days remain
Life begins for one reason.........(TO END!!!!!)

Needing one last chance
Begging for the opportunity to right your wrong
Your heart pounding, you fall to your knees
This fucking life is over......

GUILTY AS CHARGED!!!



:: WishKiller 12/16/2001 [+] ::
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L.O.S.S.

It all started the day you died
Deny the fact.The pain of your loss
I tried to hide

I know now, that you are in a better place
I sit and wonder, if i will again see your face
Like a brother i never had
DAMN! I wish i could take your place

On that life changing day,.... i heard the news
I could have taken the wheel for you
You were too young to die and had a life to live
For you,..My life i would give

18 and going strong......I'M SO SORRY!!!!

I know it is partially my fault
Steering you the wrong way and helping you lose
You needed something..you came to me
Advice or drugs.. I was here for you.
I should have kicked your ass instead
And maybe you would still be here

Now it is too late
I've learned to NEVER tempt fate
Like you don't know.
I do give a DAMN
Now i will speak the last words i heard you speak
I love you Man!

Hey cuz,..I'm still here
For the first time in my life i feel fear
I don't know if i will ever see you again
SO SPREAD YOUR WINGS AND FLY!
It's time for your real life to begin

I don't know if you can still hear me...i don't know if you even care
But i will honor you
It's the least i can do
GOD IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ME!!!!!!!!!!!!

This song is dedicated to the memory of
Jamie Lee Pate
i love you cuz!(Michael)



:: WishKiller 12/16/2001 [+] ::
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God Damned IGNORE

Void of life,Bereft of a soul,Eyes burning of a thousand hells
Maniacal and Insidious,Feeding off The blood of angels
Necromantic master of storms
ENTER (No One)

Gaze upon a being of hate, A creature denied by all faith
An exile of christianity, Mother Mary i rape
You created me....................MOTHERFUCKERS
Now can you destroy this??
Feeding off of your Hate, Pain, and Torment
Growing eternally stronger
Blackened by your undying trust in(GOD)????
But now it's too late.........

Hells gate open wide, someday you will understand why animals eat their young
The end of life begins
Murder,suicide,genocide, and terrorism
I WILL KILL YOUR GOD!!!!!!!!!!!
Soul thrust into the cataclysm
Fuck the almighty ruler of SHIT!!!

((The End Is Coming)

Out of the depths i crawl,Spearhead of a immortal legion of demons
Leading the damned to the mighty kingdom of YOUR (god??)
The battle begins
Like a panzer mowing thru,I conquer
The bloody war eventually concludes
The (Almighty) bowing to me in disgrace
fuck you all
I am now your..............god

WELCOME TO HELL!!!!!!
:: WishKiller 12/14/2001 [+] ::
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